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WHO CARES?

A STORY OF ADOLESCENCE


by COSMO HAMILTON




TO

MY YOUNG BROTHER

ARTHUR

WHO PLAYS THE GAME




"Another new novel?"

"Well,--another novel."

"What's it about?"

"A boy and a girl."

"A love story?"

"Well,-- it's about a boy and a girl."

"Do they marry?"

"I said it was about a boy and a girl."

"And are they happy?"

"Well,-- it's a love story."

"But all love stories aren't happy!"

"Yes they are,-- if it's love."




CONTENTS


PART ONE

SPRING IN THE WORLD


PART TWO

THE ROUND-ABOUT


PART THREE

THE GREAT EMOTION


PART FOUR

THE PAYMENT




I

SPRING IN THE WORLD AND ALL THINGS FOR THE YOUNG


Birds called. Breezes played among branches just bursting into
green. Daffodils, proud and erect, stood in clumps about the
dazzling lawn. Young, pulsing, eager things elbowed their way
through last year's leaves to taste the morning sun; the wide-eyed
celandine, yellower than butter; the little violet, hugging the
earth for fear of being seen; the sturdy bourgeois daisy; the pale-
faced anemone, earliest to wake and earliest to sleep; the blue
bird's-eye in small family groups; the blatant dandelion already a
head and shoulders taller than any neighbor. Every twig in the old
garden bore its new load of buds that were soft as kittens' paws;
and up the wrinkled trunks of ancient trees young ivy leaves chased
each other like school-boys.

Spring had come again, and its eternal spirit spread the message of
new-born hope, stirred the sap of awakening life, warmed the bosom
of a wintry earth and put into the hearts of birds the old desire to
mate. But the lonely girl turned a deaf ear to the call, and rounded
her shoulders over the elderly desk with tears blistering her
letter.

"I'm miserable, miserable," she wrote. "There doesn't seem to be
anything to live for. I suppose it's selfish and horrid to grumble
because Mother has married again, but why did she choose the very
moment when she was to take me into life? Oh, Alice, what am I to
do? I feel like a rabbit with its foot in a trap, listening to the
traffic on the main road--like a newly fledged bird brought down
with a broken wing among the dead leaves of Rip Van Winkle's
sleeping-place. You'll laugh when you read this, and say that I'm
dramatizing my feelings and writing for effect; but if you've got
any heart at all, you'd cry if you saw me (me of all girls!) buried
alive out here without a single soul to speak to who's as young as I
am--hushed if I laugh by mistake, scowled at if I let myself move
quickly, catching old age every hour I stay here."

"Why, Alice, just think of it! There's not a person or a thing in
and out of this house that's not old. I don't mean old as we thought
of it at school, thirty and thirty-five, but really and awfully old.
The house is the oldest for miles round. My grandfather is seventy-
two, and my grandmother's seventy. The servants are old, the trees
are old, the horses are old; and even the dogs lie about with dim
eyes waiting for death."

"When Mother was here, it was bearable. We escaped as often as we
could, and rode and drove and made secret visits to the city and saw
the plays at matinees. There's nothing old about Mother. I suppose
that's why she married again. But now that I'm left alone in this
house of decay, where everybody and everything belongs to the past,
I'm frightened of being so young, and catch looks that make me feel
that I ought to be ashamed of myself. It's so long since I quarreled
with a girl or flirted with a boy that I can't remember it. I'm
forgetting how to laugh. I'm beginning not to care about clothes or
whether I look nice."

"One day is exactly like another. I wander about aimlessly with
nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to speak to. I've even begun to
give up reading novels, because they make me so jealous. It's all
wrong, Alice. It's bad and unhealthy. It puts mutinous thoughts into
my head. Honestly, the only way in which I can get the sort of
thrill that I ought to have now, if ever I am to thrill at all, is
in making wild plans of escape, so wild and so naughty that I don't
think I'd better write about them, even to you, dear."

"Mother's on her honeymoon. She went away a week ago in a state of
self-conscious happiness that left Grandfather and Grandmother
snappy and disagreeable. She will be away four months, and every
weekly letter that comes from her will make this place more and more
unbearable and me more restless and dangerous. I could get myself
invited away. Enid would have me and give me a wonderful time. She
has four brothers. Fanny has begged me to stay with her in Boston
for the whole of the spring and see and do everything, which would
be absolutely heaven. And you know everybody in New York and could
make life worth living."

"But Grandfather won't let me go. He likes to see me about the
house, he says, and I read the papers to him morning and evening. It
does me good, he considers, to 'make a sacrifice and pay deference
to those whose time is almost up.' So here I am, tied to the
shadows, a prisoner till Mother comes back--a woman of eighteen
forced to behave like a good little girl treated as if I were still
content to amuse myself with dolls and picture books! But the fire
is smolderin Alice, and one fine day it will burst into flame."


A shaft of sunlight found its way through the branches of a chestnut
tree and danced suddenly upon the envelope into which Joan had
sealed up this little portion of her overcharged vitality. Through
the open windows of her more than ample room with its Colonial four-
post bed, dignified tallboys, stiff chairs and anemic engravings of
early-Victorianism, all the stir and murmur of the year's youth came
to Joan.

If her eyes had not been turned inward and her ears had not been
tuned only to catch her own natural complaints, this chatter of
young things would have called her out to laugh and tingle and dance
in the haunted wood and cry out little incoherent welcomes to the
children of the earth. Something of the joy and emotion of that
mother-month must have stirred her imagination and set her blood
racing through her young body. She felt the call of youth and the
urge to play. She sensed the magnetic pull of the voice of spring,
but when, with her long brown lashes wet with impatient tears, she
went to the window and looked out at the green spread of lawn and
the yellow-headed daffodils, it seemed more than ever to her that
she was peering through iron bars into the playground of a school to
which she didn't belong. She was Joan-all-alone, she told herself,
and added, with that touch of picturesque phrasing inherited from
her well-read mother, that she was more like a racing motorboat tied
to a crumbling wharf in a deserted harbor than anything else in the
world.

There was a knock on her door and the sound of a bronchial cough.
"Come in," she said and darted an anxious look at the blond fat face
of the clock on the mantelshelf. She had forgotten all about the
time.

It was Gleave who opened the door, Gleave the bald-headed manservant
who had grown old along with his master with the same resentfulness-
-the ex-prizefighter, sailor, lumberman and adventurer who had
thrown in his lot with Cumberland Ludlow, the sportsman, when both
were in the full flush of middle age. His limp, the result of an
epoch-making fight in an Australian mining camp, was emphasized by
severe rheumatism, and the fretfulness of old age was heightened by
his shortness of breath.

He got no further than: "Your grandfather--"

"I know," said Joan. "I'm late again. And there'll be a row, I
suppose. Well, that will break the monotony, at any rate." Seizing
the moment when Gleave was wrestling with his cough, she slipped her
letter into her desk, rubbed her face vigorously with her
handkerchief and made a dart at the door. Grandfather Ludlow
demanded strict punctuality and made the house shake if it failed
him. What he would have said if he could have seen this eager,
brown-haired, vivid girl, built on the slim lines of a wood nymph,
swing herself on to the banisters and slide the whole way down the
wide stairway would have been fit only for the
appreciative ears of his faithful man. As it was, Mrs. Nye, the
housekeeper, was passing through the hall, and her gasp at this
exhibition of unbecoming athletics was the least that could be
expected from one who still thought in the terms of the crinoline
and had never recovered from the habit of regarding life through the
early-Victorian end of the telescope.

Joan slipped into Mr. Cumberland Ludlow's own room, shut the door
quickly and picked her way over the great skins that were scattered
about the polished floor.

"Good morning, Grandfather," she said, and stood waiting for the
storm to break. She knew by heart the indignant remarks about the
sloppiness of the younger generation, the dire results of modern
anarchy and the universal disrespect that stamped the twentieth
century, and set her quick mind to work to frame his opening
sentence.

But the old man, whose sense of humor was as keen as ever, saw in
the girl's half-rebellious, half-deferential attitude an impatient
expectation of his usual irritation, and so he merely pointed a
shaking finger at the clock. His silence was far more eloquent and
effective than his old-fashioned platitudes. He smiled as he saw her
surprise, indicated a chair and gave her the morning paper. "Go
ahead, my dear," he said.

Sitting bolt upright, with her back to the shaded light, her
charming profile with its little blunt nose and rounded chin thrown
up against the dark glistening oak of an old armoire, Joan began to
read. Her clear, high voice seemed to startle the dead beasts whose
heads hung thickly around the room and bring into their wide, fixed
eyes a look of uneasiness.

Several logs were burning sulkily in the great open fireplace,
throwing out a pungent, juicy smell. The aggressive tick of an old
and pompous clock endeavored to talk down the gay chatter of the
birds beyond the closed windows. The wheeze of a veteran Airedale
with its chin on the head of a lion came intermittently.

They made a picture, these two, that fitted with peculiar rightness
into the mood of Nature at that moment. Youth was king, and with all
his followers had clambered over winter and seized the earth. The
red remainders of autumn were almost over-powered. Standing with his
hands behind him and his back to the fire, the old sportsman
listened, with a queer, distrait expression, to the girl's reading.
That he was still putting up a hard fight against relentless Time
was proved by his clothes, which were those of a country-lover who
dressed the part with care. A tweed shooting-coat hung from his
broad, gaunt shoulders. Well-cut riding breeches, skin tight below
his knees, ran into a pair of brown top-boots that shone like glass.
A head and shoulders taller than the average tall man, his back was
bent and his chest hollow. His thin hair, white as cotton wool, was
touched with brilliantine, and his handsome face, deeply lined and
wrinkled, was as closely shaved as an actor's after three o'clock.
His sunken eyes, overshadowed by bushy brows, had lost their fire.
He could no longer see to read. He too heard the call without, and
when he looked at the young, sweet thing upon whom he was dependent
for the news, and glanced about the room so full of memories of his
own departed youth, he said to himself with more bitterness than
usual: "I'm old; I'm very old, and helpless; life has no use for me,
and it's an infernal shame."

Joan read on patiently, glancing from time to time at the man who
seemed to her to be older than the hills, startlingly, terribly old,
and stopped only when, having lowered himself into his arm-chair, he
seemed to have fallen asleep. Then, as usual, she laid the paper
aside, eager to be up and doing, but sat on, fearful of moving. Her
grandfather had a way of looking as though he would never wake up
again, and of being as ready as a tiger to pounce upon her if she
tried to slip away. She would never forget some of the sarcastic
things he had said at these times, never! He seemed to take an
unexplainable delight in making her feel that she had no right to be
so young. He had never confided to her the tragedy of having a young
mind and an old body, young desires and winter in his blood. He had
never opened the door in his fourth wall and let her see how
bitterly he resented having been forced out of life and the great
chase, to creep like an old hound the ancient dogs among. He had
never let her suspect that the tragedy of old age had hit him hard,
filling his long hours with regret for what he might have done or
done better. Perhaps he was ashamed to confess these things that
were so futile and so foolish. Perhaps he was afraid to earn a young
incredulous laugh at the pathetic picture of himself playing Canute
with the on-coming tide of years. He was not understood by this
girl, because he had never allowed her to get a glimpse into his
heart; and so she failed to know that he insisted upon keeping her
in his house, even to the point of extreme selfishness, because he
lived his youth over again in the constant sight of her. What a long
and exquisite string of pearls there could be made of our unspoken
words!

The logs glowed red; the hard tick of the pompous clock marked off
the precious moments; and outside, spring had come. But Joan sat on
with mutinous thoughts, and the man who not so long ago had stalked
the beasts whose heads and skins were silent reminders of his
strength, lay back in his chair with nodding head.

"He's old," she said to herself, "dreadfully, awfully old, and he's
punishing me for being young. Oh! It's wicked, it's wicked. If only
I had a father to spoil me and let me live! If only Mother hadn't
forgotten all about me in her own happiness! If only I had money of
my own and could run away and join the throng!"

She heard a sigh that was almost a groan, turned quickly and saw two
slow tears running down her grandfather's face. He had been kicking
against the pricks again and had hurt his foot.

With all the elaborate care of a Deerslayer, Joan got up, gave the
boards that creaked a wide berth--she knew them all--and tiptoed to
the door. The fact that she, at eighteen years of age, a full-grown
woman in her own estimation, should be obliged to resort to such
methods made her angry and humiliated. She was, however, rejoicing
at one thing. Her grandfather had fallen asleep several pages of the
paper earlier than usual, and she was to be spared from the utter
boredom of wading through the leading articles which dealt with
subways and Tammany and foreign politics and other matters for which
she had a lofty contempt. She was never required to read the notices
of new plays and operas and the doings of society, which alone were
interesting to her and made her mouth water.

Just as she had maneuvered her way across the wide, long room and
was within reach of the door, it opened and her grandmother hobbled
in, leaning on her stick. There was a chuckle from the other end of
the room. The blood flew to the girl's face. She knew without
turning to look that the old man had been watching her careful
escape and was enjoying the sight of her, caught at the moment when
freedom was at hand.

Mrs. Ludlow was one of those busy little women who are thorns in the
flesh of servants. Her eyes had always been like those of an
inspecting general. No detail, however small, went unnoticed and
unrectified.

She had been called by an uncountable number of housemaids and
footmen "the little Madam"--the most sarcastic term of opprobrium
contained in their dictionary. A leader of New York society, she had
run charitable institutions and new movements with the same
precision and efficiency that she had used in her houses. Every hour
of her day had been filled. Not one moment had been wasted or
frittered away. Her dinner parties had been famous, and she had had
a spoke in the wheels of politics. Her witty sayings had been passed
from mouth to mouth. Her little flirtations with prominent men and
the ambitious tyros who had been drawn to her salon had given rise
to much gossip. Not by any means a beauty, her pretty face and
tiptilted nose, her perennial cheerfulness, birdlike vivacity and
gift of repartee had made her the center of attraction for years.

But she, like Cumberland Ludlow, had refused to grow old gracefully
and with resignation. She had put up an equally determined fight
against age, and it was only when the remorseless calendar proved
her to be sixty-five that she resigned from the struggle, washed the
dye out of her hair and the make-up from her face and retired to
that old house. Not even then, however, did she resign from all
activity and remain contented to sit with her hands in her lap and
prepare herself for the next world. This one still held a certain
amount of joy, and she concentrated all the vitality that remained
with her to the perfect running of her house. At eleven o'clock
every morning the tap of her stick on the polished floors was the
signal of her arrival, and if every man and woman of the menage was
not actively at work, she knew the reason why. Her tongue was still
as sharp as the blade of a razor, and for sloppiness she had no
mercy. Careless maids trembled before her tirades, and strong men
shook in their shoes under her biting phrases. At seventy, with her
snowy hair, little face that had gone into as many lines as a dried
pippin, bent, fragile body and tiny hands twisted by rheumatism, she
looked like one of the old women in a Grimm's fairy tale who
frightened children and scared animals and turned giants into
cowards.

She drew up in front of the frustrated girl, stretched out her white
hand lined with blue veins and began to tap her on the shoulder--
announcing in that irritating manner that she had a complaint to
make.

"My dear," she said, "when you write letters to your little friends
or your sentimental mother, bear in mind that the place for ink is
on the note paper and not on the carpet."

"Yes, Grandmother."

"Try to remember also that if you put your hand behind a candle you
can blow it out without scattering hot grease on the wall paper."

"Yes, Grandmother"

"There is one other thing, if I may have your patience. You are not
required to be a Columbus to discover that there is a basket for
soiled linen in your bedroom. It is a large one and eager to fulfill
its function. The floor of your clothes closet is intended for your
shoes only. Will you be so good as to make a note of these things?"

"Yes, Grandmother."

Ink, candle grease, wash basket--what did they matter in the scheme
of life, with spring tapping at the window? With a huge effort Joan
forced back a wild burst of insurrection, and remained standing in
what she hoped was the correct attitude of a properly repentant
child. "How long can I stand it?" she cried inwardly. "How long
before I smash things and make a dash for freedom?"

"Now go back and finish reading to your grand father."

And once more, trembling with anger and mortification, the girl
picked her way over the limp and indifferent skins, took up the
paper and sat down. Once more her clear, fresh voice, this time with
a little quiver in it, fitted in to the regular tick of the
querulous clock, the near-by chatter of birds' tongues and the hiss
of burning logs.

The prim old lady, who had in her time borne a wonderful resemblance
to the girl whom she watched so closely,--even to the chestnut-brown
hair and the tip-tilted nose, the full lips, the round chin and the
spirit that at any moment might urge her to break away from
discipline,--retired to carry on her daily tour of inspection; and
the old man stood again with his back to the fire to listen
impatiently and with a futile jealousy to the deeds and misdeeds of
an ever-young and ever-active world.




II


Joan was thankful when lunch was over, and murmured "Amen" to grace
with a fervor that would have surprised an unimaginative and
unobservant person. Like all the meals in that pompous dining-room,
it was a form of torture to a young thing bubbling with health and
high spirits, who was not supposed to speak unless directly
addressed and was obliged to hold herself in check while her
grandparents progressed slowly and deliberately through a menu of
medically thought-out dishes. Both the old people were on a rigid
diet, and mostly the conversation between them consisted of grumbles
at having to dally with baby-food and reminiscences of the admirable
dinners of the past. An aged butler and a footman in the sere and
yellow only added to the general Rip van Winklism, and the presence
of two very old dogs, one the grandfather's Airedale and the other
Mrs. Ludlow's Irish terrier, with a white nose and rusty gray coat,
did nothing to dispel the depression. The six full-length portraits
in oils that hung on the walls represented men and women whose
years, if added together, would have made a staggering grand total.
Even the furniture was Colonial.

But when Joan had put on her hat, sweater and a pair of thick-soled
country boots, and having taken care to see that no one was about,
slid down the banisters into the hall on her way out for her usual
lonely walk, she slipped into the garden with a queer sense of
excitement, an odd and unaccountable premonition that something was
going to happen. This queer thing had come to her in the middle of
lunch and had made her heart suddenly begin to race. If she had been
given to self analysis, which she was not, she might have told
herself that she had received a wireless message from some one as
lonely as herself, who had sent out the S.O.S. call in the hope of
its being picked up and answered. As it was, it stirred her blood
and made her restless and intensely eager to get into the open, to
feel the sun and smell the sweetness in the air and listen to the
cheery note of the birds.

It was with something of the excited interest which must have
stirred Robinson Crusoe on seeing the foot-prints on the sand of
what he had conceived to be a desert island that she ran up the
hill, through the awakened woods whose thick carpet of brown leaves
was alight with the green heads of young ferns, and out to the
clearing from which she had so often gazed wist fully in the
direction of the great city away in the distance.

She was surprised to find that she was alone as usual, bitterly
disappointed to see no other sign of life than her friends the
rabbits and the squirrels--the latter of which ambled toward her in
the expectation of peanuts. She had no sort of concrete idea of what
she had expected to find: nor had she any kind of explanation of the
wave of sympathy that had come to her as clearly as though it had
been sent over an electric wire. All she knew was that she was out
of breath for no apparent reason, and on the verge of tears at
seeing no one there to meet her. Once before, on her sixth birth
day, the same call had been sent to her when she was playing alone
with her dolls in the semitropical garden of a hired house in
Florida, and she had started up and toddled round to the front and
found a large-eyed little girl peering through the gate. It was the
beginning of a close and blessed friendship.

This time, it seemed, the call had been meant for some other lonely
soul, and so she stood and looked with blurred eyes over the wide
valley that lay unrolled at her feet and, asked herself what she had
ever done to deserve to be left out of all the joy of life. From
somewhere near by the baying of hounds came, and from a farm to her
left the crowing of a cock; and then a twig snapped behind her, and
she turned eagerly.

"Oh, hello," said the boy.

"Oh, hello," she said.

He was not the hero of her dreams, by a long way. His hair didn't
curl; his nose was not particularly straight; nor were his eyes
large and magnetic. He was not something over six feet two; nor was
he dressed in wonderful clothes into which he might have been poured
in liquid form. He was a cheery, square-shouldered, good-natured
looking fellow with laughter in his gray eyes and a little quizzical
smile playing round a good firm mouth. He looked like a man who
ought to have been in the navy and who, instead, gave the impression
of having been born among horses. His small, dark head was bare; his
skin had already caught the sun, and as he stood in his brown
sweater with his hands thrust into the pockets of his riding
breeches, he seemed to her to be just exactly like the brother that
she ought to have had if she had had any luck at all, and she held
out a friendly hand with a comfortable feeling of absolute security.

With some self-consciousness he took it and bowed with a nice touch
of deference. He tried to hide the catch in his breath and the
admiration in his eyes. "I'm glad it's spring," he said, not knowing
quite what he was saying.

"So am I," said Joan. "Just look at those violets and the way the
leaves are bursting."

"I know. Great, isn't it? Are you going anywhere?"

"No. I've nowhere to go."

"Same here. Let's go together."

And they both laughed, and the squirrel that had come to meet Joan
darted off with a sour look. He had anticipated a fat meal of
peanuts. He was out of it now, he saw, and muttered whatever was the
squirrel equivalent for a swear-word.

The boy and girl took the path that ran round the outskirts of the
wood, swung into step and chimed into the cantata of spring with
talk and laughter.

There had been rather a long silence.

Joan was sitting with her back against the trunk of a fallen tree,
with her hands clasped round her knees. She had tossed her hat
aside, and the sunlight made her thick brown hair gleam like copper.
They had come out at another aerie on the hill, from which a great
stretch of open country could be seen. Her eyes were turned as usual
in the direction of New York, but there was an expression of
contentment in them that would have startled all the old people and
things at home.

Martin Gray was lying full stretch on the turf with his elbows up
and his chin on his left fist. He had eyes for nothing but the vivid
girl whom he had found so unexpectedly and who was the most alive
thing that he had ever seen.

During this walk their chatter had been of everything under the sun
except themselves. Both were so frankly and unaffectedly glad to be
able to talk at all that they broke into each other's laughing and
childish comments on obvious things and forgot themselves in the
pleasure of meeting. But now the time had come for mutual
confidences, and both, in the inevitable young way, felt the desire
to paint the picture of their own particular grievance against life
which should make them out to be the two genuine martyrs of the
century. It was now a question of which of them got the first look-
in. The silence was deliberate and came out of the fine sense of
sportsmanship that belonged to each. Although bursting to pour out
her troubles, Joan wanted to be fair and give Martin the first turn,
and Martin, equally keen to prove himself the champion of badly
treated men, held himself in, in order that Joan, being a woman,
should step into the limelight. It was, of course, the male member
of the duet who began. A man's ego is naturally more aggressive than
a woman's.

"Do you know," said Martin, arranging himself in a more comfortable
attitude, "that it's over two months since I spoke to any one of
about my own age?"

Joan settled herself to listen. With the uncanny intuition that
makes women so disconcerting, she realized that she had missed her
chance and must let the boy have his head.

Not until he had unburdened his soul would she be able, she knew, to
focus his complete attention upon herself.

"Tell me about it," she said.

He gave her a grateful look. "You know the house with the kennels
over there--the hounds don't let you miss it. I've been wandering
about the place without seeing anybody since Father died."

"Oh, then, you're Martin Gray!"

"Yes."

"I was awfully sorry about your father."

"Thanks." The boy's mouth trembled a little, and he worked his thumb
into the soft earth. "He was one of the very best, and it was not
right. He was too young and too much missed. I don't understand it.
He had twenty-five years to his credit, and I wanted to show him
what I was going to do. It's all a puzzle to me. There's something
frightfully wrong about it all, and it's been worrying me awfully."

Joan couldn't find anything to say. Years before, when she was four
years old, Death had come to her house and taken her own father
away, and she had a dim remembrance of dark rooms and of her mother
crying as though she had been very badly hurt. It was a vague figure
now, and the boy's queer way of talking about it so personally made
the conventional expressions that she had heard seem out of place.
It was the little shake in his voice that touched her.

"He had just bought a couple of new hunters and was going to run the
hunt this fall. I wanted him to live forever. He died in New York,
and I came here to try and get used to being without him. I thought
I should stay all alone for the rest of my life, but--this morning
when I was moping about, everything looked so young and busy that I
got a sort of longing to be young and busy again myself. I don't
know how to explain it, but everything shouted at me to get up and
shake myself together, and on the almanac in Father's room I read a
thing that seemed to be a sort of message from him."

"Did you? What was it?"

"'We count it death to falter, not to die.' It was under to-day's
date, and it was the first thing I saw when I went to the desk where
Father used to sit, and it was his voice that read it to me. It was
very wonderful and queer. It sort of made me ashamed of the way I
was taking it, and I went out to begin again,--that's how it seemed
to me,--and I woke everybody up and set things going and saw that
the horses were all right, and then I climbed over the wall, and as
I walked away, out again for the first time after all those bad
weeks, I wanted to find some one young to talk to. I don't know how
it was, but I went straight up the hill and wasn't a bit surprised
when I saw you standing there."

"That's funny," said Joan.

"Funny--how?"

"I don't know. But if you hadn't found me after the feeling that
came to me at lunch--"

"Well?"

"Well, I'm sure I should have turned bitter and never believed any
more in fairies and all that. I don't think I mean fairies, and I
can't explain what 'all that' stands for, but I know I should have
been warped if I hadn't turned round and seen you."

And she laughed and set him laughing, and the reason of their having
met was waved aside. The fact remained that there they were--youth
with youth, and that was good enough.




III


There was a touch of idealism hidden away somewhere in Martin's
character. A more than usually keen-eyed boy had once called him
"the poet" at school. In order that this dubious nickname should be
strangled at birth, there had been an epoch-making fight. Both lads
came out of it in a more or less unrecognizable condition, but
Martin reestablished his reputation and presently entered Yale free
from the suspicion of being anything but a first-rate sportsman and
an indisputable man.

There Martin had played football with all the desired bullishness.
He had hammered ragtime on the piano like the best ordinary man in
the University. With his father he rode to hounds hell for leather,
and he wrote comic stuff in a Yale magazine which made him
admiringly regarded as a sort of junior George Ade. It was only in
secret, and then with a sneaking sense of shame, that he allowed his
idealistic side to feed on Browning and Ruskin, Maeterlinck and
Barrie, and only when alone on vacation that he bathed in the beauty
of French cathedrals, sat thrilled and stirred by the waves of
melody of the great composers, drew up curiously touched and awed at
the sight of the places in the famous cities of Europe that echoed
with the footsteps of history.

If the ideality of that boy had been seized upon and developed by a
sympathetic hand, if his lively imagination and passion for the
beautiful had been put through a proper educational course, he might
have used the latent creative power with which nature had endowed
him and taken a high place among artists, writers or composers. As
it was, his machinelike, matter-of-fact training and his own self-
conscious anxiety not to be different from the average good
sportsman had made him conform admirably to type. He was a fine
specimen of the eager, naive, quick-witted, clean-minded young
American, free from "side," devoid of mannerisms, determined to make
the utmost of life and its possibilities.

It is true that when death seized upon the man who was brother and
pal as well as father to Martin, all the stucco beneath which he had
so carefully hidden his spiritual and imaginative side cracked and
broke. Under the indescribable shock of what seemed to him to be
wanton and meaningless cruelty, the boy gave way to a grief that was
angry and agonized by turns. He had left a fit, high-spirited father
to drive to a golf shop to buy a new mashie, returned to take him
out to Sleepy Hollow for a couple of rounds--and found him stretched
out on the floor of the library, dead. Was it any wonder that he
tortured himself with unanswerable questions, sat for hours in the
dark trying with the most pitiful futility to fathom the riddle of
life, or that he wandered aimlessly about the place, which was
stamped with his father's fine and kindly personality,--like a stick
suddenly swept out of the current of the main stream into a tideless
backwater, untouched by the sun? And when finally, still deaf to the
call of spring, his father's message of courage, "We count it death
to falter, not to die," rang out and straightened him up and set him
on the rails of action once again, it was not quite the same Martin
Gray who uttered the silent cry for companionship that found an
answer in Joan's lonely and rebellious heart. Sorrow had
strengthened him. Out of the silent manliness of grief he went out
again on the great main road with a wistful desire to love and be
loved, to find some one with whom to link an arm in an empty world
all crowded with strangers--and there stood Joan.

It was natural that he should believe, under those circumstances,
that he and she did not meet by mere accident, that they had been
brought together by design--all the more natural when he listened to
her story of mental and physical imprisonment and came to see,
during their daily stolen meetings, that he was as necessary to her
as she was to him. Every time he left her and watched her run back
to that old house of old people, it was borne in upon him more
definitely that he was appointed in the cosmic scheme to rescue Joan
from her peculiar cage and help her to try her wings. All about that
young fresh, eager creature whose eyes were always turned so
ardently toward the city, his imagination and superstition built a
bower of love.

He had never met a girl in any way like her--one who wanted so much
and would give so little in return for it, who had an eel-like way
of dodging hard-and-fast facts and who had made up her mind with all
the zest and thoughtlessness of youth to mold life, when finally she
could prove how much alive she was, into no other shape than the one
which most appealed to her. She surprised and delighted him with her
quick mental turns and twists, and although she sometimes made him
catch his breath at her astoundingly frank expression of
individualism, he told himself that she was still in the chrysalis
stage and could only get a true and normal hang of things after
rubbing shoulders with what she called life with a capital L.

Two weeks slipped away more quickly than these two young things had
ever known them to go, and the daily meetings, utterly guileless and
free from flirtation, were the best part of the day; but there was a
new note in Joan's laugh as she swung out of the wood and went
toward Martin one afternoon.

He caught it and looked anxiously at her. "Is anything wrong?"

"There will be," she said. "I just caught sight of Gleave among the
trees. He was spying!"

"Why do you think so?"

"Oh, he never walks a yard unless he has to. I thought I saw him
eying me rather queerly at lunch. I've been looking happy lately,
and that's made him suspicious."

"But what can he do?"

"What can't he do! Grandmother's one of the old-fashioned sort who
thinks that a girl must never speak to a man without a chaperon.
They must have been a lively lot of young women in her time! Gleave
will tell her that I've been coming here to meet you, and then
there'll be a pretty considerable row."

Martin was incredulous. He was in America in the twentieth century.
Young people did as they liked, and parents hardly ventured to
remonstrate. He showed his teeth in the silent laugh that was
characteristic of him. "Oh, no! I'll be all right. Your grandfather
knew my father."

"That won't make any difference. I believe that in a sort of way
he's jealous of my having a good time. Queer, isn't it? Are all old
people like that? And as to Grandmother, this will give her one of
the finest chances to let herself go that she's had since I set a
curtain on fire with a candle; and when she does that, well, things
fly, I assure you."

"Are you worried about it?"

Joan gave a gesture of the most eloquent impatience. "I have to be,"
she said. "You can't understand it, but I'm treated just as if I
were a little girl in short frocks. It's simply appalling.
Everything I say and do and look is criticized from the point of
view of 1850. Can't you imagine what will be thought of my sneaking
out every afternoon to talk to a dangerous young man who has only
just left Yale and lives among horses?"

That was too much for Martin. His laugh echoed among the trees.

But Joan didn't make it a duet. "It wouldn't be so funny to you if
you stood in my shoes, Martin," she said. "If I had gone to
Grandmother and asked her if I might meet you,--and just think of my
having to do that,--she would have been utterly scandalized. Now,
having done this perfectly dreadful thing without permission, I
shall be hauled up on two charges,--deceit and unbecoming behavior,-
-and I shall be punished."

The boy wheeled around in amazement. "You don't mean that?"

"Of course I mean it. Haven't I told you over and over again that
these two dear but irritating old people look down at me from their
awful pile of years and only see me as a child?"

"But what will they do to you?"

Joan shrugged her shoulders. "Anything they like. I'm completely at
their mercy. For Mother's sake I try to be patient and put up with
it all. It's the only home I've got, and when you're dependent and
haven't a cent to bless yourself with, you can't pack up and
telephone for a cab and get out, can you? But it can't go on
forever. Some day I shall answer back, and sparks will fly, and I
shall borrow money from the coachman, who's my only friend, and go
to Alice Palgrave and ask her to put me up until Mother comes back.
I'm a queer case, Martin--that's the truth of it. In a book the
other day I came across an exact description of myself. I could have
laughed if it hadn't hit me so hard. It said: 'She was a super-
modern in an early-Victorian frame, a pint of champagne in a little
old cut-glass bottle, a gnome engine attached to a coach and pair.'"
She picked up a stone and flung it down the hill.

One eager wild thought rushed through Martin's brain. It had made
his blood race several times before, but he had thrown it aside
because, during all their talks and walks, Joan had never once
looked at him with anything but the eyes of a sister. As his wife he
could free her, lift her out of her anomalous atmosphere and take
her to the city to which her face was always turned. But he lacked
the courage to speak and continued to hope that some day, by some
miracle, she might become less superlatively neutral, less almost
boyish in her way of treating him. He threw it aside again, tempted
as he was to take advantage of a chance to bribe her into becoming
his wife with an offer of life. Then too, she was only eighteen, and
although he was twenty-four and in the habit of thinking of himself
as a man of ripe years, he had to confess that the mere idea of
marriage made him feel awfully young and scared. And so he said
nothing and went on hoping.

Joan broke the silence. "Everything will be different when Mother
comes back," she said. "I shall live with her then, and I give you
my word I'll make up for lost time. So who cares? There are three
good hours before I face Grandmother. Let's enjoy ourselves."




IV


Martin couldn't settle down after his solitary dinner that night.
Several times he had jumped out of his father's reading chair and
stood listening at the window. It seemed to him that some one had
called his name. But the only sounds that broke the exquisite
quietude of the night were the distant barking of a dog, the whirl
of an automobile on the road or the pompous crowing of a master of a
barnyard, taken up and answered by others near and far.

Each time the boy had stood at the open window and peered out
eagerly and wistfully, but nothing had moved across the moon-bathed
lawn or disturbed the sleeping flowers. Under the cold light of the
stars the earth appeared to be more than usually peaceful and
drowsy. All was well.

But the boy's blood tingled, and he was filled with an unexplainable
sense of excitement. Some one needed him, and he wanted urgently to
be needed. He turned from the window and ran his eyes over the long,
wide, low-ceilinged masculine room, every single thing in which
spelled Father to him; then he went back to the chair the right to
sit in which had been given to him by death, persuaded that over the
unseen wires that stretch from heart to heart a signal had been
sent, certain that he was to hold himself in readiness to do
something for Joan.

He had written out the words, "We count it death to falter, not to
die" on a long strip of card in big bold letters. They faced him as
he sat and read over and over again what he regarded as his father's
message. It was a call to service, an inspiration to activity, and
it had already filled him with the determination to fall into step
with the movement of the world, to put the money of which he was now
the most reluctant owner to some use as soon as the necessary legal
steps of proving his father's Will had been taken. He had made up
his mind to leave the countryside at the end of the week and meet
his father's lawyers and take advice as to how he could hitch
himself to some vigorous and operative pursuit. He was going, please
God, to build up a workmanlike monument to the memory of his father.

Ten o'clock struck, and uninterested in his book, he would have gone
to bed but for the growing feeling that he was not his own master,
that he might be required at any moment. The feeling became so
strong that finally he got up and went into the hall. He couldn't
wait any longer. He must go out, slip into the garden of the Ludlow
house and search the windows for a sight of Joan.

He unbolted the front door, gave a little gasp and found himself
face to face with the girl who was in his thoughts.

There was a ripple of excited laughter; a bag was thrust into his
hand, and like a bird escaped from a cage, Joan darted past him into
the hall.

"I've done it," she cried, "I've done it!" And she broke into a
dance.

Martin shut the door, put the bulging suit-case on a chair and
watched the girl as she whirled about the hall, as graceful as a
water sprite, with eyes alight with mischief and animation. The
sight of her was so bewitching, the fact that she had come to him
for help so good, that his curiosity to know what it was that she
had done fell away.

Suddenly she came to a breathless stop and caught hold of his arm.
"Bolt the door, Marty," she said, "quickly, quickly! They may send
after me when they find I've got away. I'll never go back, never,
never!"

All the spirit of romance in the boy's nature flamed. This was a
great adventure. He had become a knight errant, the rescuer of a
damsel in distress. He shot the bolts back, turned out the lights,
took Joan's hand and led her into his father's room.

"Turn these lights out too," she said. "Make it look as if everybody
had gone to bed."

He did so, with a sort of solemn sense of responsibility; and it was
in a room lighted only by a shaft of pale moonlight that fell in a
pool upon the polished floor that these two utterly inexperienced
children sat knee to knee, the one to pour out her story, the other
to listen and hold his breath.

"I was right about Gleave. He was spying. It turns out that he's
been watching us for two or three days. When I went back this
afternoon, I got a look from Mrs. Nye that told me there was a row
in the air. I was later than usual and rushed up to my room to
change for dinner. The whole house seemed awfully quiet and ominous,
like the air before a thunderstorm. I expected to be sent for at
once to stand like a criminal before Grandfather and Grandmother--
but nothing happened. All through dinner, while Gleave tottered
about, they sat facing each other at the long table, conducting,--
that's the only word to describe it,--a polite conversation. Neither
of them took any notice of me or even once looked my way. Even
Gleave put things in front of me as though he didn't see me, and
when I caught the watery eyes of the old dogs, they both seemed to
make faces and go 'Yah!'"

"It was weird, and would have been frightfully funny if I hadn't
known that sooner or later I should have to stand up and take my
dose. Phew, it was a ghastly meal. I'm certain I shall dream it all
over again every time I eat something that doesn't agree with me! It
was a great relief when at last Grandmother turned at the door and
looking at my feet as though they were curiosities, said: 'Joan, you
will follow us to the drawing-room.' Her voice was cold enough to
freeze the sea."

"Then she went out, her stick rapping the floor, Grandfather after
her with his shoulders bent and a piece of bread on the back of his
dinner jacket. The two dogs followed, and I made up the tail of that
queer procession. I hate that stiff, cheerless drawing room anyhow,
with all its shiny cases of china and a collection of all the
uncomfortable chairs ever designed since Adam. I wanted to laugh and
cry, and when I saw myself in the glass, I couldn't believe that I
wasn't a little shivering girl with a ribbon in my hair and white
socks."

Some one whistled outside. The girl seized the boy's arm in a sudden
panic of fright.

"It's all right," he said." It's only the gardener going to his
cottage."

Joan laughed, and her grip relaxed. "I'm jumpy," she said. "My
nerves are all over the place. Do you wonder?"

"No, tell me the rest."

Joan's voice took on a little deeper note like that of a child who
has come to the really creepy bit of his story. "Marty," she went
on, "I wish you could have heard the way in which Grandmother let
herself go! She held me by the scruff of my neck and hit me right
and left with the sort of sarcasm that made me crinkle. According to
her, I was on the downward path. I had done something quite hopeless
and unforgivable. She didn't know how she could bring herself to
report the affair--think of calling it an affair, Marty!--to my poor
mother. Mother, who'd never say a word to me, whatever I did! She
might have out-of-date views, she said, of how young girls should
behave, but they were the right views, and so long as I was under
her roof and in her care, she would see that I conformed to them.
She went on making a mountain out of our little molehill, till even
Grandfather broke in with a word; and then she snapped at him, got
into her second wind and went off again. "I didn't listen half the
time. I just stood and watched her as you'd watch one of those weird
old women in one of Dickens' books come to life. What I remember of
it all is that I am deceitful and fast, ungrateful, irresponsible,
with no sense of decency, and when at last she pronounced sentence,
what do you think it was? Confinement to the house for a week and if
after that, I ever meet you again, to be packed off to a finishing-
school in Massachusetts. She rapped her stick on the floor by way of
a full stop, and waved her hand toward the door. I never said a
word, not a single one. What was the use? I gave her a little bow
and went. Just as I was going to rush upstairs and think over what I
could do, Grandfather came out and told me to go to his room to read
something to him. And there, for the first time, he let me see what
a fine old fellow he really is. He agreed with Grandmother that I
ought not to have met you on the sly. It was dangerous, he said,
though perfectly natural. He was afraid I found it very trying to
live among a lot of old grouches with their best feet in the grave,
but he begged me to put up with it because he would miss me so. He
liked having me about, not only to read to him but to look at. I
reminded him of Grandmother when she was young, and life was worth
living.

"I cried then. I couldn't help it--more for his sake than mine. He
spoke with such a funny sort of sadness. 'Be patient, my dear,' he
said. 'Treat us both with a little kindness. You're top dog. You
have all your life before you. Make allowances for two old people
entering second childhood. You'll be old some day, you know.' And he
said this with such a twisted sort of smile that I felt awfully
sorry for him, and he saw it and opened out and told me how
appalling it was to become feeble when the heart is as young as
ever. I had no idea he felt like that."

"When I left him I tried hard to be as patient as he asked me to be
and wait till Mother comes back and make the allowances he spoke
about and give up seeing you and all that. But when I got up to my
room with the echo of Grandmother's rasping voice in my ears, the
thought of being shut up in the house for a week and treated like a
lunatic was too much for me. What had I done that every other
healthy girl doesn't do every day without a question? How COULD I go
on living there, watched and suspected? How could I put up any
longer with the tyranny of an old lady who made me feel artificial
and foolish and humiliated--a kind of doll stuffed with saw dust?

"Marty, I couldn't do it. I simply couldn't. Something went snap,
and I just flung a few things into a suit-case, dropped it out the
window, climbed down the creeper and made a dash for freedom.
Nothing on earth will ever take me back to that house again,
nothing, nothing!"

All this had been said with a mixture of humor and emotion that
carried the boy before it. He saw and heard everything as she
described it. His own relations with his father, which had been so
free and friendly, made Joan's with those two old people seem
fantastic and impossible. All his sympathy went out to her. To help
her to get away appealed to him as being as humane as releasing a
squirrel from a trap. No thought of the fact that she was a girl who
had rushed impulsively into a most awkward position struck him. Into
his healthy mind no sex question thrust itself. She was his friend,
and as such, her claim upon him was overwhelming and unarguable.

"What do you want me to do?" he asked. "Have you thought of
anything?"

"Of course I have. In the morning, early, before they find out that
I've bolted, you must drive me to New York and take me to Alice
Palgrave. She'll put me up, and I can telegraph to Mother for money
to buy clothes with. Does it occur to you, Marty, that you're the
cause of all this? If I hadn't turned and found you that afternoon,
I should still be eating my soul away and having my young life
crushed. As it is, you've forced my hand. So you're going to take me
to the magic city, and if you want to see how a country cousin makes
up for lost time and sets things humming, watch me!"

So they talked and talked, sitting in that room which was made the
very sanctum of romance by young blood and moonlight. Eleven o'clock
slipped by, and twelve and one; and while the earth slept, watched
by a million glistening eyes, and nature moved imperceptibly one
step nearer to maturity, this boy and girl made plans for the
discovery of a world out of which so many similar explorers have
crept with wounds and bitterness.

They were wonderful and memorable hours, not ever to be lived again.
They were the hours that all youth enjoys and delights in once--
when, like gold-diggers arrived in sight of El Dorado, they halt and
peer at the chimera that lies at their feet--

"I'm going to make my mark," Martin said. "I'm going to make
something that will last. My father's name was Martin Gray, and I'll
make it MEAN some thing out there for his sake."

"And I," said Joan, springing to her feet and throwing up her chin,
"will go joy-riding in the huge round-about. I've seen what it is to
be old and useless, and so I shall make the most of every day and
hour while I'm young. I can live only once, and so I shall make life
spin whatever way I want it to go. If I can get anybody to pay my
whack, good. If not, I'll pay it myself--whatever it costs. My
motto's going to be a good time as long as I can get it, and who
cares for the price?"

The boy followed her to the window, and the moonlight fell upon them
both. "Yes," he said, "you'll get a bill, all right. How did you
know that?"

"I haven't lived with all those old people so long for nothing," she
answered. "But you won't catch me grumbling if I get half as much as
I'm going out for. Listen to my creed, Martin, and take notes, if
you want to keep up with me."

"Go ahead," he said, watching the sparkle in her eyes.

She squared her shoulders and folded her arms in a half-defiant way.
"I shall open the door of every known Blue Room--hurrying out again
if there are ugly things inside, staying to enjoy them if they're
good to look at. I shall taste a little of every known bottle, feel
everything there is to feel except the thing that hurts, laugh with
any one whose laugh is catching, do everything there is to do, go
into every booth in the big Bazaar; and when I'm tired out and
there's nothing left, I shall slip out of the endless procession
with a thousand things stored away in my memory. Isn't that the way
to live?"

From the superior height of twenty-four, Martin looked down on Joan
indulgently. He didn't take her frank and unblushing individualism
seriously. She was just a kid, he told himself. She was a girl who
had been caged up and held in. It was natural for her to say all
those wild things. She would alter her point of view as soon as the
first surprise of being free had worn off--and then he would speak;
then he would ask her to throw in her lot with his and walk in step
with him along the street of adventure.

"I sha'n't see the sun rise on this great day," she said, letting a
yawn have full play. "I'm sleepy, Marty. I must lie down this very
instant, even if the floor's the only place you can offer me. Quick!
What else is there?" Before he could answer, she had caught sight of
a low, long, enticing divan, and onto this, with a gurgle of
pleasure, she made a dive, placed two cushions for her head, put one
little hand under her face, snuggled into an attitude of perfect
comfort and deliberately went to sleep. It was masterly.

Martin, not believing that she could turn off so suddenly at a
complete tangent, spoke to her once or twice but got no other answer
than a long, contented sigh. He stood for a little while trying to
make out her outline in the dim corner of the room. Then he tiptoed
out to the hall, possessed himself of a warm motor-rug, returned
with it and laid it gently and tenderly over the unconscious girl.

He didn't intend to let sleep rob him of the first sight of a day
that was to mean so much to him, and he went over to the open
window, caught the scent of lilac and listened, with all his
imagination and sense of beauty stirred, to the deep breathing of
the night. . ..Yes, he had cut through the bars which had kept this
girl from taking her place among the crowd. He was responsible for
the fact that she was about to play her part in the comedy of life.
He was glad to be responsible. He had passionately desired a cause
to which to attach hirmelf; and was there, in all the world, a
better than Joan?

Spring had come again, and all things were young, and the call to
mate rang in his ears and set his heart beating and his thoughts
racing ahead. He loved her, this girl that he had come upon standing
out in all her freshness against a blue sky. He would serve her as
the great lovers had served, and please God, she would some day
return his love. They would build up a home and bring up a family
and go together up the inevitable hill.

And as he stood sentinel, in a waking dream, waiting for the finger
of dawn to rub the night away, sleep tapped him on the shoulder, and
he turned and went to the divan and sat down with his back to it,
touched one of Joan's placid hands with his lips and drifted into
further dreams with a smile around his mouth.




V


It was ten o'clock in the morning when Martin brought his car to a
stop and looked up at the heavy Gothic decorations of a pompous
house in East Fifty-fifth Street. "Is this it?"

"Yes," said Joan, getting out of the leather-lined coat that he had
wrapped her in. "It really is a house, isn't it; and luckily, all
the gargoyles are on the outside." She held out her hand and gave
Martin the sort of smile for which any genuine man would sell his
soul. "Marty," she added, "you've been far more than a brother to
me. You've been a cousin. I shall never be able to thank you. And I
adored the drive with our noses turned to the city. I shan't be able
to be seen on the streets until I've got some frocks, so please come
and see me every day. As soon as Alice has got over her shock at the
sight of me, I'm going to compose an historical letter to
Grandmother."

"Let her down lightly," said Martin, climbing out with the suit-
case. "You've won."

"Yes, that's true; but I shouldn't be a woman if I didn't get in the
last word."

"You're not a woman," said Martin. "You're a kid, and you're in New
York, and you're light-headed; so look out."

Joan laughed at his sudden gravity and ran up the wide steps and put
her finger on the bell. "I've written down your telephone number,"
she said, "and memorized your address. I'll call you up at three
o'clock this afternoon, and if you've nothing else to do, you may
take me for a walk in the Park."

"I sha'n't have anything else to do."

The door was opened. The footman was obviously English, with the art
of footmanism in his blood.

"Is Mrs. Gilbert Palgrave at home?" asked Joan as if the question
were entirely superfluous.

"No, miss."

"Are you sure?"

"Quite sure, miss. Mrs. Palgrave left for Boston yesterday on
account of hillness in the family, miss."

There was an awkward and appalled silence. Little did the man
suspect the kind of blow that his statement contained.

Joan darted an agonized look at Martin.

"But Mr. Palgrave is at 'ome, miss."

And that galvanized the boy into action. He had met Gilbert Palgrave
out hunting. He had seen the impertinent, cocksure way in which he
ran his eyes over women. He clutched the handle of the case and
said: "That's all right, thanks. Miss Ludlow will write to Mrs.
Palgrave." Then he turned and went down the steps to the car.

Trying to look unconcerned, Joan followed.

"Get in, quick," said Martin. "We'll talk as we go."

"But why? If I don't stay here, where am I to stay?"

"I don't know. Please get in."

Joan stood firm. The color had come back to her face, and a look of
something like anger had taken the place of fright. "I didn't tell
you to march off like that. Gilbert's here."

"That's why we're going," Said Martin.

"I don't understand." Her eyes were blazing.

"I know you don't. You can't stay in that house. It isn't done."

"I can do it, and I must do it. Do you suppose I'm going back with
my tail between my legs?"

"If we argue here, we shall collect a crowd." He got into the car
and held out his hand.

Joan ignored it but followed him in. She was angry, puzzled,
disappointed, nonplussed. Alice had no right to be away on such an
occasion. Everything had looked so easy and smooth-sailing. Even
Martin had changed into a different man, and was ordering her about.
If he thought he could drive her back to that prison again, he was
considerably wrong. She would never go back, never.

The car was running slowly. "Have you any other friends in town?"
asked Martin, who seemed to be trying to hide an odd kind of
excitement.

"No," said Joan. "Alice is my only friend here. Drive to some place
where I can call up Gilbert Palgrave and explain the whole thing.
What does it matter about my being alone? If I don't mind, who
should? Please do as I say. There's no other place for me to go to,
and wild horses sha'n't drag me back."

"You sha'n't go back," said Martin. He turned the car up Madison
Avenue and drove without another word to East Sixty-seventh Street
and stopped in front of a small house that was sandwiched between a
mansion and a twelve-story apartment-house. "This is mine," he said
simply. "Will you come in?"

A smile of huge relief came into Joan's eyes. "Why worry?" she said.
"How foolish of us not to have thought of this before!"

But there was no smile on Martin's face. His eyes were amazingly
bright and his mouth set firmly. His chin looked squarer than ever.
Once more he carried out the suit-case, put a latchkey into the lock
and threw back the door. Joan went in and stood looking about the
cheery hall with its old oak, and sporting prints, white wood and
red carpet. "Oh, but this is perfectly charming, Marty," she cried
out. "Why did we bother our heads about Alice when there is this
haven of refuge?"

Martin marched up to her and stood eye to eye. "Because I'm alone,"
he said, "and you're a girl. That's why."

Joan made a face. "I see. The conventions again. Isn't there any
sort of woman here?"

"Yes, the cook."

She laughed. There was a comic side to this tragedy, after all, it
seemed. "Well, perhaps she'll give us some scrambled eggs and
coffee. I could eat a horse."

Martin opened the door of the sitting room. Like the one in which
she had slept so soundly the previous night, it was stamped with the
character and personality of the other Martin Gray. Books, warm and
friendly, lined the walls. Mounted on wood, fish of different sizes
and breeds hung above the cases, and over the fireplace there was a
full-length oil painting of a man in a red coat and riding breeches.
His kind eyes greeted Joan.

For several minutes she stood beneath it, smiling back. Then she
turned and put her hand involuntarily on the boy's shoulder. "Oh,
Marty!" she said. "I AM sorry."

The boy gave one quick upward glance, and cleared his throat. "I
told you that this house is mine. It isn't. It's yours. It's the
only way, if you're to remain in the city. Is it good enough? Do you
want to stay as much as all that?"

The puzzled look came back. For a moment Joan was silent, worrying
out the meaning of Martin's abrupt and rather cryptic words. There
seemed to be a tremendous amount of fuss because she happened to be
a girl.

Martin spoke again before she had emerged from the thicket of inward
questions. She was only eighteen, after all.

"I mean, you can marry me if you like." he said, "and then no one
can take you back." He was amazed at his courage and hideously
afraid that she would laugh at him. He had never dared to say how
much he loved her.

She did laugh, but with a ring of so much pleasure and relief that
the blood flew to his head. "Why, Marty, what a brain! What
organization! Of course I'll marry you. Why ever didn't we think of
that last night?"

But before he could pull himself together a man-servant entered with
an air of extreme surprise. "I didn't know you'd come home, sir," he
said, "until I saw the suit-case." He saw Joan, and his eyes
rounded.

"I was just going to ring," said Martin. "We want some breakfast.
Will you see to it, please?" Alone again, Martin held out his hand
to Joan, in an odd, boyish way. And she took it, boyishly too.
"Thank you, Marty, dear," she said. "You've found the magic carpet.
My troubles are over; and oh, what a pretty little bomb I shall have
for Grandmamma! And now let's explore my house. If it's all like
this, I shall simply love it!" And away she darted into the hall.

"And now," said Joan, "being duly married,--and you certainly do
make things move when you start, Marty,--to send a telegram to
Grandmother! Lead me to the nearest place."

Certain that every person in that crowded street saw in them a newly
married couple, Martin tried to hide his joy under a mask of extreme
callousness and universal indifference. With the challenging
antagonism of an English husband,--whose national habit it is
invariably to stalk ahead of his women-kind while they scramble
along at his heels,--he led the way well in advance of his
unblushing bride. But his eyes were black with emotion. He saw
rainbows all over the sky, and rings of bright light round the
square heads of all the buildings which competed in an endeavor to
touch the clouds; and there was a song in his heart.

They sat down side by side in a Western Union office, dallied for a
moment or two with the tied pencils the points of which are always
blunt, and to the incessant longs and shorts of a dozen telegraph
instruments they put their epoch-making news on the neat blanks.
Martin did not intend to be left out of it. His best pal was off the
map, and so he chose a second-best friend and wrote triumphantly:
"Have been married to-day. Staying in New York for honeymoon. How
are you?" He was sorry that he couldn't remember the addresses of a
hundred other men. He felt in the mood to pelt the earth with such
telegrams as that.

"Listen," said Joan, her eyes dancing with misj chief. "I think this
is a pretty good effort: 'Blessings and congratulations on her
marriage to-day may be sent to Mrs. Martin Gray, at 26 East Sixty-
seventh Street, New York.--Joan.' How's that?"

It was the first time the boy had seen that name, and he blinked and
smiled and got very red. "Terse and literary," he said, dying to put
his arms round her and kiss her before all mankind. "They'll have
something to talk about at dinner to-night. A nice whack in the eye
for Gleave."

He managed to achieve a supremely blase air while the words were
being counted, but it crumbled instantly when the telegraphist shot
a quick look at Joan and gave Martin a grin of cordial
congratulation.

As soon as he saw a taxi, Martin hailed it and told the chauffeur to
drive to the corner of Forty-second Street and Fifth Avenue. "We'll
walk from there," he said to Joan, "--if you'd like to, that is."

"I would like to. I want to peer into the shop windows and look at
hats and dresses. I've got absolutely nothing to wear. Marty, tell
me, are we well off?"

Martin laughed. She reminded him of a youngster going for a picnic
and pooling pocket money. "Yes," he said, "--quite."

She sat back with her hands crossed in her lap. "I'm so glad. It
simplifies everything to have plenty to spend." But for her
exquisite slightness and freshness, no one would have imagined that
she was an only just-fledged bird, flying for the first time. Her
equability and poise were those of a completely sophisticated woman.
Nothing seemed to surprise her. Whatever happened was all part and
parcel of the great adventure. Yesterday she was an overwatched
girl, looking yearningly at a city that appeared to be unattainable.
To-day she was a married woman who, a moment ago, had been standing
before a minister, binding herself for good or ill to a man who was
delightfully a boy and of whom she knew next to nothing. What did it
matter--what did anything matter--so long as she achieved her long-
dreamed-of ambition to live and see life?

"Then I can go ahead," she added, "and dress as becomes the wife of
a man of one of our best families. I've never been able to dress
before. Trust me to make an excellent beginning." There was a
twinkle of humor in her eyes as she said these things, and
excitement too. "Tell me this, Marty: is it as easy to get unmarried
as it is to get married?"

"You're not thinking about that already, surely!"

"Oh, no. But information is always useful, isn't it?"

Just for a moment the boy's heart went down into his boots. She
didn't love him yet; he knew that He intended to earn her love as an
honest man earns his living. What hurt was the note of flippancy in
her voice in talking of an event that was to him so momentous and
wonderful. It seemed to mean no more to her to have entered into a
lifelong tie than the buying of a mere hat--not so much, not nearly
so much, as to have found a way of not going back to those two old
people in the country. She was young, awfully young, he told himself
again. Presently her feet would touch the earth, and she would
understand.

As they walked up Fifth Avenue and with little gurgles of enthusiasm
Joan halted at every other shop to look at hats that appealed to
Martin as absurdly, willfully freakish, and evening dresses which
seemed deliberately to have been handed over to a cat to be torn to
ribbons, it came back to him that one just such soft spring evening,
the year before, he had walked home from the Grand Central Station
and been seized suddenly with an almost painful longing to be asked
by some precious person who belonged wholly to him to share her
delight in all the things which then stood for nothing in his life.
Then and there he fulfilled an ambition long cherished and hidden
away; he touched Joan on the arm and opened the elaborate door of a
famous jeweler. He was known to the shop from the fact that he and
his father had always dealt there for wedding and Christmas
presents. He was welcomed by a man in the clothes of a concert
singer and with the bedside manner of a family doctor.

He was desperately self-conscious, and his collar felt two sizes too
small, but he managed to get into his voice a tone that was
sufficiently matter-of-fact to blunt the edge of the man's rather
roguish smile. "Let me see your latest gold-mesh bags," he said as
ordinary, everyday people ask to see collar studs.

"Marty!" whispered Joan. "What are you going to do?"

"Oh, that's all right," said Martin. "You can't get along without a
bag, you see."

Half a dozen yellow, insinuating things were laid out on the shining
glass, and with a wonderful smile that was worth all the gold the
earth contained to Martin, Joan made a choice--but not hastily, and
not before she had inspected every other gold bag in the shop. Even
at eighteen she was woman enough to want to be quite certain that
she possessed herself of the very best thing of its kind and would
never have, in future, to feel jealous of one that might lie
alluringly in the window.

"This one," she said finally. "I'm quite sure."

Martin didn't ask the price. It was for his bride. He picked it up
and hung it over her wrist, said "The old address," nodded to the
man,--who was just about to call attention to a tray of diamond
brooches,--and led the way out, feeling at least six feet two.

And as Joan regained the street, she passed another milestone in her
life. To be the proprietor of precisely just such a gold bag had
been one of her steady dreams.

"Marty," she said, "what a darling you are!"

The boy's eyes filled with tears.




VI


It was an evening Martin would never forget.

His suggestion that they should dine at Delmonico's and go to the
Empire to see Ethel Barrymore, accepted with avidity, had stirred
Joan to immediate action. She had hailed a taxi, said, "You'll see
me in an hour, Marty," and disappeared with a quick injunction to
have whatever she bought sent home C.O.D.

It was actually two hours before he saw her again. He thanked his
stars that he had enough money in the bank to meet the checks that
he was required to make out in quick succession. Joan had not wasted
time, and as she got into the car to drive away from that sandwich
house of excited servants, two other milestones had been left
behind. She was in a real evening frock, and all the other things
she had bought were silk.

They drove straight home from the theater. Joan was tired. The day
had been long and filled with amazements. She was out in the world
at last. Realization had exceeded expectation for the first time in
history.

The sand-man had been busy with Martin's eyes too, but he led the
way into the dining room with shoulders square and chin high and
spring in his blood. This was home indeed.

"What a tempting little supper!" said Joan. "And just look at all
these flowers."

They were everywhere, lilacs and narcissi, daffodils, violets and
hothouse roses. Hours ago he had sent out the almost unbelieving
footman for them. Joan and flowers--they were synonymous.

She put her pretty face into a great bowl of violets. "You
remembered all my little friends, Marty," she said.

They sat opposite each other at the long table. Martin's father
looked down at Martin's wife, and his mother at the boy from whom
she had been taken when his eager eyes came up to the level of her
pillow. And there was much tenderness on both their faces.

Martin caught the manservant's eyes. "Don't wait," he said. "We'll
look after ourselves."

Presently Joan gave a little laugh. "Please have something yourself.
You're better than a footman. You're a butler."

His smile as he took his place would have lighted up a tunnel.

"I like Delmonico's," said Joan. "We'll often dine there. And the
play was perfectly splendid. What a lot of others there are to see!
I don't think we'll let the grass grow under our feet, Marty. And
presently we'll have some very proper little dinner parties in this
room, won't we? Interesting, vital people, who must all be good-
looking and young. It will be a long time before I shall want to see
anyone old again. Think what Alice Palgrave will say when she comes
back! She'll underline every word if she can find any words. She
wasn't married till she was twenty."

And presently, having pecked at an admirable fruit salad, just
sipped a glass of wine and made close-fitting plans that covered at
least a month, Joan rose. "I shall go up now, Marty," she said.
"It's twelve o'clock."

He watched her go upstairs with his heart in his throat. Surely this
was all a dream, and in a moment he would find himself rudely and
coldly awake, standing in the middle of a crowded, lonely world? But
she stopped on the landing, turned, smiled at him and waved her
hand. He drew in a deep breath, went back into the dining room, put
his lips to the violets that had been touched by her face, and
switched off the lights. The scent of spring was in the air.

"Come in," she said, when presently, after a long pause, he knocked
at her door.

She was sitting at a gleaming dressing table in something white and
clinging, doing her hair that was so soft and brown and electrical.

He dared not trust himself to speak. He sat down on the edge of a
sofa at the foot of the bed and watched her.

She went on brushing but with her unoccupied hand gathered her gown
about her. "What is it, Marty?" she asked quietly.

"Nothing," he said, finding something that sounded curiously unlike
his voice.

She could see his young, eager face and broad shoulders in the
looking-glass. His hands were clasped tightly round one knee.

"I've been listening to the sound of traffic," she said. "That's the
sort of music that appeals to me. It seems a year since I did my
hair in that great, prim room and heard the owls cry and watched
myself grow old. Just think! It's really only a few hours ago that I
dropped my suit-case out of a window and climbed down the creeper.
We said we'd make things move, didn't we?"

"I shall write to your grandfather in the morning," said Martin,
with almost comical gravity and an unconscious touch of patronage.
How childlike the old are to the very young!

"That will be nice of you," answered Joan. "We'll be very kind to
him, won't we? There'll be no one to read the papers to him now."

"He was a great chap once," said Martin. "My father liked him
awfully."

She swung her hair free and turned her chair a little. "You must
tell me what he said about him, in the morning. Heigh-ho, I'm so
sleepy."

Martin got up and went to see if the windows were all open. "They'll
call us at eight," he said, "unless you'd like it to be later."

Joan went to the door and opened it and held out her hand. "Eight's
good," she said. "Good night, Marty."

The boy looked at the little open hand with its long fingers, and at
his wife, who seemed so cool and sweet and friendly. What did she
mean?

He asked her, with an odd catch in his voice.

And she gave him the smile of a tired child. "Just that, old boy.
Good night."

"But--but we're married," he said with a little stammer.

"Do you think I can forget that, in this room, with that sound in
the street?"

"Well, then, why say good night to me like this?"

"How else, Marty dear?"

An icy chill ran over Martin and struck at his heart. Was it really
true that she could stand there and hold out her hand and with the
beginning of impatience expect him to leave a room the right to
which had been made over to him by law and agreement?

He asked her that, as well as he could, in steadier, kinder words
than he need have used.

And she dropped her hand and sighed a little. "Don't spoil
everything by arguing with me, Marty. I really am only a kid, you
know. Be good and run along now. Look--it's almost one."

The blood rushed to his head, and he held out his hands to her. "But
I love you. I love you, Joany. You can't--you CAN'T tell me to go."
It was a boy's cry, a boy profoundly, terribly hurt and puzzled.

"Well, if we've got to go into all this now I may as well sit down,"
she said, and did. "That air's rather chilly, too." She folded her
arms over her breast.

It was enough. All the chivalry in Martin came up and choked his
anger and bitterness and untranslatable disappointment. He went out
and shut the door and stumbled downstairs into the dark sitting room
and stood there for a long time all among chaos and ruin. He loved
her to adoration, and the spring was in his blood; and if she was
young, she was not so young as all that; and where was her side of
the bargain? And at last, through the riot and jumble of his
thoughts, her creed of life came back to him, word for word: she
took all she could get and gave nothing in return; and "Who cares?"
was her motto.

And after that he stood like a man balanced on the edge of a
precipice. In cold blood he could go back and like a brute demand
his price. And if he went forward and let her off because he loved
her so and was a gentleman, down he must go, like a stone.

He was very white, and his lips were set when he went up to his
room. With curious deliberation he got back into his clothes and saw
that he had money, returned to the hall, put on his coat and hat,
shut the door behind him and walked out under the stars.

"All right, then, who cares?" he said, facing toward the "Great
White Way." "Who the devil cares?"

And up in her room, with her hand under her cheek like a child, Joan
had left the world with sleep.




PART TWO


THE ROUND-ABOUT

I


Alice Palgrave's partner had dealt, and having gone three in "no
trumps" and found seven to the ace, king, queen in hearts lying
before her in dummy, she wore a smile of beatific satisfaction. So
also did Alice--for two reasons. The deal obviously spelled money,
and Vere Millet could be trusted to get every trick out of it. There
were four bridge tables fully occupied in the charming drawing-room,
and as she caught the hostess' eye and smiled, she felt just a
little bit like a fairy godmother in having surrounded Joan with so
many of the smartest members of the younger set barely three weeks
after her astonishing arrival in a city in which she had only one
friend.

Alice didn't blind herself to the fact that in order to gamble, most
of the girls in the room would go, without the smallest
discrimination, to anybody's house; but there were others,--notably
Mrs. Alan Hosack, Mrs. Cooper Jekyll and Enid Ouchterlony,--whose
pride it was to draw a hard, relentless line between themselves and
every one, however wealthy, who did not belong to families of the
same, or almost the same, unquestionable standing as their own.
Their presence in the little house in East Sixty-seventh Street gave
it, they were well aware, a most enviable cachet and placed Joan
safely within the inner circle of New York society--the democratic
royal inclosure. It was something to have achieved so soon--little
as Joan appeared, in her astonishing coolness, to appreciate it. The
Ludlows, as Joan had told Alice with one of her frequent laughs,
might have come over in the only staterooms on the ship which towed
the heavily laden Mayflower, but that didn't alter the fact that the
Hosacks, the Jekylls and the Ouchterlonys were the three most
consistently exclusive and difficult families in the country, to
know whom all social climbers would joyously mortgage their chances
of eternity. Alice placed a feather in her cap accordingly.

Joan's table was the first to break up. She was a loser to the tune
of seventy dollars, and while she wrote her check to Marie
Littlejohn, a tiny blond exotic not much older than herself,--who
laid down the law with the ripe authority of a Cabinet Minister and
kept to a daily time-table with the unalterable effrontery of a
fashionable doctor,--talked over her shoulder to Christine Hurley.

"Alice tells me that your brother has gone to France with the
Canadian Flying Corps. Aren't you proud of him?"

"I suppose so, but it isn't our war, and they're awfully annoyed
about it at Piping Rock. He was the crack man of the polo team, you
know. I don't see that there was any need of his butting into this
European fracas."

"I quite agree with you," said Miss Littlejohn, with her eyes on the
clock. "I broke my engagement to Metcalfe Hussey because he insisted
on going over to join the English regiment his grandfather used to
belong to. I've no patience with sentimentality." She took the check
and screwed it into a small gold case. "I'm dining with my bandage-
rolling aunt and going on to the opera. Thank goodness, the music
will drown her war talk. Good-by." She nodded here and there and
left, to be driven home with her adipose chow in a Rolls-Royce.

Christine Hurley touched a photograph that stood on Joan's desk.
"Who's this good-looking person?" she asked.

"My husband," said Joan.

"Oh, really! When are we to see something of him?"

"Oh, I don't know," said Joan. "He's about somewhere."

Miss Hurley laughed. "It's like that already, is it? Haven't you
only just been married?"

"Yes," said Joan lightly, "but we've begun where most people leave
off. It's a great saving of time and temper!"

The sophisticated Christine, no longer in the first flush of giddy
youth, still unmarried after four enterprising years, was surprised
into looking with very real interest at the girl who had been until
that moment merely a hostess. Her extreme finish, her unself-
conscious confidence and intrepidity, her unassumed lightness of
temper were not often found in one so young and apparently virginal.
She dismissed as unbelievable the story that this girl had been
brought up in the country in an atmosphere of early Victorianism.
She had obviously just come from one of those elaborate finishing
schools in which the daughters of rich people are turned into
hothouse plants by sycophants and parasites and sent out into the
world the most perfect specimens of superautocracy, to patronize
their parents, scoff at discipline, ignore duty and demand the sort
of luxury that brought Rome to its fall. With admiration and
amusement she watched her say good-by to one woman after another as
the various tables broke up. It really gave her quite a moment to
see the way in which Joan gave as careless and unawed a hand to Mrs.
Alan Hosack and Mrs. Cooper Jekyll as to the Countess Palotta, who
had nothing but pride to rattle in her little bag; and when finally
she too drove away, it was with the uneasy sense of dissatisfaction
that goes with the dramatic critic from a production in which he has
honestly to confess that there is something new--and arresting.

Alice Palgrave stayed behind. She felt a natural proprietary
interest in the success of the afternoon. "My dear," she said
emotionally, "you're perfectly wonderful!"

"I am? Why?"

"To any other just-married girl this would have been an ordeal, a
nerve-wrecking event. But you've been as cool as a fish--I've been
watching you. You might have been brought up in a vice-regal lodge
and hobnobbed all your life with ambassadors. How do you do it?"

Joan laughed and threw out her arms. "Oh, I don't know," she said,
with her eyes dancing and her nostrils extended. "I don't stop to
think how to do things. I just do them. These people are young and
alive, and it's good to be among them. I work off some of my own
vitality on them and get recharged at the sound of their chatter.
People, people--give me people and the clash of tongues and the
sense of movement. I don't much care who they are. I shall pick up
all the little snobbish stuff sooner or later, of course, and talk
about the right set and all that, as you do. I'm bound to. At
present everything's new and exciting, and I'm whipping it up. You
wait a little. I'll cut out some of the dull and pompous when I've
got things going, and limit myself to red-blooded speed-breakers.
Give me time, Alice."

She sat down at the piano and crashed out a fox-trot that was all
over town. No one would have imagined from her freshness and
vivacity that she had been dancing until daylight every night that
week.

"Well," said Alice when she could be heard, "I see you making
history, my dear; there's no doubt about that."

"None whatever," answered Joan. "I'm outside the walls at last, and
I'll go the pace until the ambulance comes."

"With or without Martin Gray?"

"With, if he's quick enough--without, if not."

"Be careful," said Alice.

"Not I, my dear. I left care away back in the country with my little
old frocks."

Alice held out her hand. "You bewilder me a little," she said. "You
make me feel as if I were in a high wind. You did when we were at
school, I remember. Well, don't bother to thank me for having got up
this party." She added this a little dryly.

With a most winning smile Joan kissed her. "You're a good pal,
Alice," she said, "and I'm very grateful."

Alice was compensated, although her shrewd knowledge of character
told her how easily her friend won her points. "And I hope you're
duly grateful to Martin Gray?"

"To dear old Marty? Rather! He and I are great pals."

But that was all Alice got. Her burning curiosity to know precisely
how this young couple stood must go unsatisfied for the time being.
She had only caught a few fleeting glimpses of the man who had given
Joan the key to life, and every time had wondered, from something in
his eyes, whether he found things wholly good. She was just a little
suspicious of romances. Her own had worn thin so quickly. "Good-by,
my dear," she said. "Don't forget you're dining with me to-morrow."

"Not likely."

"What are you doing to-night?"

"Going to bed at nine o'clock to sleep the clock round. I'm awfully
tired."

She stood quite still for many minutes after Alice had gone, and
shut her eyes. In a quick series of moving pictures she saw
thousands of little lights and swaying people and clashing colors,
and caught snatches of lilting music and laughter. She was tired,
and something that seemed like a hand pressed her forehead tightly,
but the near-by sound of incessant traffic sent her blood spinning,
and she opened her eyes and gave a little laugh and went out.

Martin was on his way downstairs. He drew up abruptly. "Oh, hello!"
he said.

"Oh, hello!" said Joan.

He was in evening clothes. His face had lost its tan and his eyes
their clear country early-to-bed look. "You've had a tea-fight, I
see. I peered into the drawing-room an hour ago and backed out,
quick."

"Why? They were all consumed with curiosity about you. Alice has
advertised our romantic story, you see." She clasped her hands
together and adopted a pose in caricature of the play heroine in an
ecstasy of egomania.

But Martin's laugh was short and hollow. He wasn't amused. "How did
you get on?" he asked.

"Lost seventy dollars--that's all. Three-handed bridge with
Grandfather and Grandmother was not a good apprenticeship. I must
have a few lessons. D'you like my frock? Come up. You can't see it
from there."

And he came up and looked at her as she turned this way and that.
How slim she was, and alluring! The fire in him flamed up, and his
eyes flickered. "Awful nice!" he said.

"You really like it?"

"Yes, really. You look beyond criticism in anything, always."

Joan stretched out her hand. "Thank you, Marty," she said. "You say
and do the most charming things that have ever been said and done."

He bent over the long-fingered hand. His pride begged him not to let
her see the hunger and pain that were in his eyes.

"Going out?" she asked.

Martin gave a careless glance at one of B. C. Koekkoek's inimitable
Dutch interiors that hung between two pieces of Flemish tapestry.
His voice showed some of his eagerness, though. "I was going to have
dinner with some men at the University Club, but I can chuck that
and take you to the Biltmore or somewhere else if you like."

Joan shook her head. "Not to-night, Marty. I'm going to bed early,
for a change."

"Aren't you going to give me one evening, then?" His question was
apparently as casual as his attitude. He stood with his hands in his
pockets and his legs wide apart and his teeth showing. He might have
been talking to a sister.

"Oh, lots, presently. I'm so tired to-night, old boy."

He would have given Parnassus for a different answer. "All right
then," he said. "So long."

"So long, Marty! Don't be too late." She nodded and smiled and went
upstairs.

And he nodded and smiled and went down--to the mental depths. "What
am I to do?" he asked himself. "What am I to do?" And he put his
arms into the coat that was held out and took his hat. In the street
the soft April light was fading, and the scent of spring was blown
to him from the Park. He turned into Fifth Avenue in company with a
horde of questions that he couldn't shake off. He couldn't believe
that any of all this was true. Was there no one in all this world of
people who would help him and give him a few words of advice? "Oh,
Father," he said from the bottom of his heart, "dear old Father,
where are you?"

The telephone bell was ringing as Joan went into her room. Gilbert
Palgrave spoke--lightly and fluently and with easy words of
flattery.

She laughed and sat on the edge of the bed and crossed her legs and
put the instrument on her knee. "You read all that in a book," she
said. "I'm tired. Yesterday and the night before. . .No. . .No. .
.All right, then. Fetch me in an hour." She put the receiver back.

"Why not?" she said to herself, ringing for her maid. "Bed's for old
people. Thank God, I sha'n't be old for a century."

She presented her back to the deft-fingered girl and yawned. But the
near-by clatter of traffic sounded in her ears.




II


Gilbert Palgrave turned back to his dressing table. An hour gave him
ample time to get ready.

"Don't let that bath get cold," he said. "And look here. You may
take those links out. I'll wear the pearls instead."

The small, eel-like Japanese murmured sibilantly and disappeared
into the bathroom.

This virginal girl, who imagined herself able to play with fire
without burning her fingers, was providing him with most welcome
amusement. And he needed it. He had been considerably bored of late-
-always a dangerous mood for him to fall into. He was thirty-one.
For ten years he had paid far more than there had been any necessity
to keep constantly amused, constantly interested. Thanks to a shrewd
ancestor who had bought large tracts of land in a part of Manhattan
which had then been untouched by bricks and mortar, and to others,
equally shrewd, who had held on and watched a city spreading up the
Island like a mustard plant, he could afford whatever price he was
asked to pay. Whole blocks were his where once the sheep had grazed.

Ingenuity to spend his income was required of Palgrave. He possessed
that gift to an expert degree. But he was no easy mark, no mere
degenerate who hacked off great chunks of a splendid fortune for the
sake of violent exercise. He was too indolent for violence, too
inherently fastidious for degeneracy. And deep down somewhere in a
nature that had had no incentive to develop, there was the fag end
of that family shrewdness which had made the early Palgraves envied
and maligned. Tall and well built, with a handsome Anglo-Saxon type
of face, small, soft, fair mustache, large, rather bovine gray eyes,
and a deep cleft in his chin, he gave at first sight an impression
of strength--which left him, however, when he spoke to pretty women.
It was not so much the things he said,--light, jesting, personal
things,--as the indications they gave of the overweening vanity of
the spoiled boy and of a brain which occupied itself merely with the
fluff and thistledown of life. He was, and he knew it and made no
effort to disguise the fact, a typical specimen of the very small
class of indolent bystanders made rich by the energy of other men
who are to be found in every country. He was, in fact, the peculiar
type of aristocrat only to be found in a democracy--the aristocrat
not of blood and breeding or intellect, but of wealth. He was
utterly without any ambition to shine either in social life or
politics, or to achieve advertisement by the affectation of a half-
genuine interest in any cause. On the contrary, he reveled in being
idle and indifferent, and unlike the aristocrats of Europe he
refused to catch that archaic habit, encouraged at Eton and Oxford,
of relating everything in the universe to the standards and
prejudices of a single class.

Palgrave was triumphantly one-eyed and selfish; but he waited, with
a sort of satirical wistfulness, for the time when some one person
should cause him to stand eager and startled in a chaos of
individualism and indolence and shake him into a Great Emotion. He
had looked for her at all times and places, though without any
troublesome optimism or personal energy, and had almost come to
believe that she was to him what the end of the rainbow is to the
idealist. In marrying Alice he had followed the path of least
resistance. She was young, pretty and charming, and had been very
much in love with him. Also it pleased his mother, and she had been
worth pleasing. He gave his wife all that she could possibly need,
except very much of himself. She was a perfectly dear little soul.

Joan only kept him waiting about fifteen minutes. With perfect
patience he stood in front of an Italian mirror in the drawing-room,
smoking a cigarette through a long tortoise-shell holder. He
regarded himself with keen and friendly interest, not in the least
surprised that his wife's little friend from the country so
evidently liked him. He found that he looked up to his best form,
murmured a word of praise for the manner in which his evening coat
was cut and smiled once or twice in order to have the satisfaction
of getting a glimpse of his peculiarly good teeth. Then he laughed,
called himself a conceited ass and went over to examine a rather
virile sketch of a muscular, deep-chested young man in rowing
costume which occupied an inconspicuous place among many well-chosen
pictures. He recognized Martin, whom he had seen several times
following the hounds, and tried to remember if Alice had told him
whether Joan had run away with this strenuous young fellow or been
run away with by him. There was much difference between the two
methods.

He heard nothing, but caught the scent of Peau d'Espagne. It carried
his mind back to a charming little suite in the Hotel de Crillon in
Paris. He turned and found Joan standing in the doorway, watching
him.

"Did you ever row?" she asked.

"No," he said, "never. Too much fag. I played squash and roulette.
You look like a newly risen moon in her first quarter. Where would
you like to go?"

"I don't know," said Joan. "Let's break away from the conventional
places. I rather want to see queer people and taste different food.
But don't let's discuss it. I leave it to you." She went downstairs.
She might have been living in that house for years.

He followed, admiring the way her small, patrician head was set on
her shoulders, and the rich brown note of her hair. Extraordinary
little person, this! He told his chauffeur to drive to the Brevoort,
and got into the car. It was possible at that hour to deal with the
Avenue as a street and not as a rest-cure interrupted by short
spurts.

"Would you rather the windows were up, Gehane?" he asked, looking at
her through his long lashes.

"No. The air's full of new ferns. But why Gehane?"

"You remind me of her, and I'm pretty certain that you also could do
your hair in the same two long braids. Given the chance, I can see
you developing into some-thing like medievalism and joining the
ranks of women who loved greatly."

They passed the Plaza with all its windows gleaming, like a giant's
house in a fairy tale.

Joan shook her head. "No," she said. "No. I'm just the last word of
this very minute. Everybody in America for a hundred and fifty years
has worked to make me. I'm the reward of mighty effort. I'm the
dream-child of the pioneers, as far removed from them as the chimney
of the highest building ftora the rock on which it's rooted."

Palgrave laughed a little. "It appears that you did some thinking
out there in your country cage."

"Thinking! That's all I had to do! I spent a lifetime standing on
the hill with the woods behind me trying to catch the music of this
street, the sound of this very car, and I thought it all out, every
bit of it."

"Every bit of what?"

"Life and death and the great hereafter," she said, "principally
life. That's why I'm going out to dinner with you instead of going
early to bed."

The glare of a lamp silvered her profile and the young curve of her
bosom. Somewhere, at some time, Palgrave had knelt humbly, with
strange anguish and hunger, at the feet of a girl with just that
young proud face and those unawakened eyes. The memory of it was
like an echo of an echo.

"Why," said Joan, halting for a moment on her way to the steps of
the old hotel, "this looks like a picture postcard of a bit of
Paris."

"Yes, on the other side of the Seine, near the Odeon. Our
grandfathers imagined that they were very smart when they stayed
here. It's one of the few places in town that has atmosphere."

"I like it," said Joan.

The hall was alive with people, laughing and talking, and the walls
with the rather bold designs of the posters. A band, which made up
in vim and go what it lacked in numbers, was playing a selection
from "The Chocolate Soldier." The place was full of the smell of
garlic and cigarette smoke and coffee. There was a certain dramatic
animation among the waiters, characteristically Latin. Few of the
diners wore evening clothes. The walls were refreshingly free from
the hideous gold decorations of the average hotel.

Men stared at Joan with undisguised interest and approbation. Her
virginity was like the breath of spring in the room. Women looked
after Palgrave in the same way. Into that semi-Bohemianism he struck
a rather surprising note, like the sudden advent of caviar and
champagne upon a table of beer and pickles.

They were given a table near the wall by the window, far too close
to other tables for complete comfort. Waiters were required to be
gymnasts to slide between them and avoid an accident. Palgrave
ordered without any hesitation, like a newspaper man finding his way
through a daily paper.

"How do you like it?" he said.

Joan looked about her. Mostly the tables were occupied by a man and
a woman, but at a few were four and six of both in equal numbers,
and here and there parties of men. At one or two, women with
eccentric heads sat together in curious garments which had the
appearance of being made at home on the spur of the moment. They
smoked between mouthfuls and laughed without restraint. Some of the
men wore longish hair and the double tie of those who wish to be
mistaken for dramatists. Others affected a poetic disarrangement of
collar, and fantastic beards. There were others who had wandered
over the border of middle age and who were bald and strangely
adipose, with mackerel eyes and unpleasant mouths. They were with
young girls, gaudily but shabbily dressed, shopgirls perhaps, or
artists' models or stenographers, who in dull and sordid lives
grappled any chance to obtain a square meal, even if it had to be
accessory to such companionship. The minority of men present was
made up of honest, clean, commonplace citizens who were there for a
good dinner in surroundings that offered a certain stimulus to the
imagination.

"Who are they all?" asked Joan, beating time with a finger to the
lilting tune which the little band had just begun, with obvious
enjoyment. "Adventurers, mostly, I imagine," replied Palgrave, not
unpleased to play Baedeker to a girl who was becoming more and more
attractive to him. "I mean people who live by their wits--writers,
illustrators, actors, newspaper men, with a smattering of Wall
Street brokers seeking a little mild diversion as we are, and
foreigners to whom this place has a sentimental interest because it
reminds them of home. Sophisticated children, most of them,
optimists with moments of hideous pessimism, enthusiasts at various
stages of Parnassus, the peak of which is lighted with a huge dollar
sign. A friendly, kindly lot, hard-working and temperamental, with
some brilliance and a rather high level of cleverness--slaves of the
magazine, probably, and therefore not able to throw stones farther
into the future than the end of the month. This is not a country in
which literature and art can ever grow big; the cost of living is
too high. The modern Chatterton detests garrets and must drive
something with an engine in it, whatever the name it goes by."

There was one electrical moment during the next hour which shook the
complacency of every one in the larger room and forced the thoughts,
even of those who deliberately turned their backs to the drama of
Europe, out across the waters which they fondly and fatuously hoped
cut off the United States from ever being singed by the blaze. The
little band was playing one of those rather feeble descriptive
pieces which begin with soft, peaceful music with the suggestion of
the life of a farmyard, and the sound of church bells, swing into
the approach of armed men with shrill bugle calls, become chaotic
with the rush of fearful women and children, and the commencement of
heavy artillery, and wind up with the broad triumphant strains of a
national anthem. It happened, naturally enough, that the particular
national anthem chosen by the energetic and patriotic man who led
the band at the piano was "The Marseillaise."

The incessant chatter and laughter went on as usual. The music had
no more effect upon the closely filled room than a hackneyed
ragtime. Suddenly, as the first few notes of that immortal air rang
out, a little old white-haired man, dining in a corner with a much-
bosomed, elderly woman, sprang to his feet and in a voice vibrating
with the fervor of emotion screamed "Vive la France--vive la
patrie!" again and again.

Instantly, from here and there, other men, stout and middle-aged,
lifted out of their chairs by this intense and beautiful burst of
feeling, joined in that old heart-cry, and for two or three
shattering minutes the air was rent with hoarse shouts of "Vive
Joffre," "Vive la France," "Vive la patrie," to the louder and
louder undercurrent of music. Indifference, complacency, neutrality,
gave way. There was a general uprising and uproar; and America, as
represented by that olla podrida of the professions, including the
one which is the oldest in the world, paid homage and tribute and
yelled sympathy to those few Frenchmen among them whose passionate
love of country found almost hysterical vent at the sound of the
hymn which had stirred all France to a height of bravery and
sacrifice never before reached in the history of nations.

There were one or two hisses and several scoffing laughs, but these
were instantly drowned by vigorous hand-clapping. The next moment
the room resumed its normal appearance.

When Palgrave, who had been surprised to find himself on his feet,
sat down again, he saw that Joan's lips were trembling and that
there were tears in her eyes. He gave a little laugh, but before he
could say any thing, her hand was on his arm. "No, don't," she said.
"Let it go without a single word. It was too good for sarcasm."

"Oddly enough, I had no sarcasm ready," replied Palgrave. "When our
time comes, I wonder whether we shall have an eightieth part of that
enthusiasm for our little old tune. What do you think?"

"Our time? What time?"

"The time when we have to get into this melee or become the pariah
dog among countries. I don't profess to any knowledge of
international affairs, but any fool can see that our sham neutrality
will be the most costly piece of political blundering ever
perpetrated in history. Here we are in 1915. The war's nine months
old. For every day we stand aside we shall eventually pay a year's
bill."

"That's all too deep for me," said Joan. "And anyway, I shan't be
asked to pay anything. What shall we do now?"

"What would you like to do? Go on to the Ritz and dance?" He had a
sudden desire to hold this girl in his arms.

"Why not? I'm on the verge of getting fed up with this place. Let's
give civilization a turn."

"I think so." He beckoned to his waiter." The check," he said.
"Sharp's the word, please."

The Crystal Room was not content with one band. Even musicians must
sometimes pause for breath, and anything like a break in the jangle
and noise might bring depression to the diners who had crowded in to
dance. As soon, therefore, as the left band was exhausted, the one
on the right sprang in with renewed and feverish energy. Whatever
melody there might have been in the incessant ragtime and fox trots
was lost beneath the bang and clang of drum and cymbals, to which
had been added other more ingenious ear tortures in the shape of
rattles and whistles. Broken-collared men and faded women struggled
for elbow room like a mass of flies caught on sticky paper. There
was something both heathenish and pathetic in the whole thing. The
place was reekingly hot.

"Come on," said Joan, her blood stirred by the movement and sound.

Palgrave held her close and edged his way into the crowd between
pointed bare elbows and tightly clasped hands.

"They call this dancing!" he said.

"What do you call it?"

"A bullfight in Hades." And he laughed and put his cheek against her
hair and held her young slim body against his own. What did he care
what it was or where they were? He had all the excuse that he needed
to get the sense and scent of her. His utter distaste of being
bruised and bumped, and of adding himself to a heterogeneous
collection of people with no more individuality than sheep, who
followed each other from place to place in flocks after the manner
of sheep, left him. This girl was something more than a young, naive
creature from the country, childishly keen to do everything and go
everywhere at fever heat--something more than the very epitome of
triumphant youth as clean and sweet as apple blossoms, with whom to
flirt and pose as being the blase man of the world, the Mr. Know-All
of civilization, a wild flower in a hot house. Attracted at once by
her exquisite coloring and delicious profile, and amused by her
imperative manner and intolerant point of view, he had now begun to
be piqued and intrigued by her insurgent way of treating marriage
and of ignoring her husband--by her assumption of sexlessness and
the fact that she was unmoved by his compliments and looked at him
with eyes in which there was no remote suggestion of physical
interest.

And it was this attitude, new to him hitherto on his easy way, that
began to challenge him, to stir in him a desire to bring her down to
his own level, to make her fall in love and become what he called
human. He had given her several evenings, and had put himself out to
cater to her eager demand to see life and burn the night away in
crowds and noise. He had treated her, this young, new thing, as he
was in the habit of treating any beautiful woman with whom he was on
the verge of an affair and who realized the art of give and take.
But more than ever she conveyed the impression of sex detachment to
which he was wholly unaccustomed. He might have been any
inarticulate lad of her own age, useful as a companion, to be
ordered to fetch and carry, dance or walk, go or come. At that
moment there was no woman in the city for whom he would undergo the
boredom and the bruising and the dementia of such a place as the one
to which she had drawn him. He was not a provincial who imagined
that it was the smart thing to attend this dull orgy and struggle on
a polished floor packed as in a sardine tin. Years ago he had
outgrown cabaret mania and recovered from the fascination of
syncopation. And yet here he was, once more, against all his
fastidiousness, playing the out-of-town lad to a girl who took
everything and gave nothing in return. It was absurd, fantastic. He
was Gilbert Palgrave, the man who picked and chose, for whose
attentions many women would give their ears, who stood in satirical
aloofness from the general ruck; and as he held Joan in his arms and
made sporadic efforts to dance whenever there was a few inches of
room in which to do so, using all his ingenuity to dodge the menace
of the elbows and feet of people who pushed and forced as though
they were in a subway crush, he told himself that he would make it
his business from that moment onward to lay siege to Joan, apply to
her all his well-proved gifts of attraction and eventually make her
pay his price for services rendered.

He had just arrived at this cold-blooded determination when, to his
complete astonishment and annoyance, a strong, muscular form thrust
itself roughly between himself and Joan and swept her away.




III


"Marty!" cried Joan.

There was a curious glint in Martin's gray eyes, like the flash of
steel in front of a window. His jaw was set, and his face strangely
white.

"You said you were going to bed."

"I was going to bed, Marty dear."

"What are you doing here, then?"

"I changed my mind, old boy, and went out to dinner."

"Chucked me in favor of Palgrave."

"No, I didn't."

"What then?"

"He rang up after you'd gone; and going to bed like an old crock
seemed silly and feeble, and so I dressed and went out."

"Why with that rotter Palgrave? "

"Why not? And why rotter?"

"You don't answer my question!"

"Have I got to answer your question?"

"You're my wife, although you don't seem to know it; and I object to
Pargrave."

"I can't help that, Marty. I like him, you see, and humble little
person as I am, I can't be expected to turn my back on every one
except the men you choose for me."

"I don't choose any men for you. I want you for myself."

"Dear old Marty, but you've got me forever!"

"No, I haven't. You're less mine now than you were when I only saw
you in dreams. But all the same you're my wife, and I tell you now,
you sha'n't be handled by a man like Palgrave."

They were in the middle of the floor. There were people all round
them, thickly. They were obliged to keep going in that lunatic
movement or be run down. What a way and in what a place to bare a
bleeding heart!

For the first time since he had answered to her call and found her
standing clean-cut against the sky, Martin held Joan in his arms.
His joy in doing so was mixed with rage and jealousy. It had been
worse than a blow in the mouth suddenly to see her, of whom he had
thought as fast asleep in what was only the mere husk of home,
dancing with a man like Palgrave.

And her nearness maddened him. All the starved and pent-up passion
that was in him flamed and blazed. It blinded him and buzzed in his
ears. He held her so tight and so hungrily that she could hardly
breathe. She was his, this girl. She had called him, and he had
answered, and she was his wife. He had the right to her by law and
nature. He adored her and had let her